I have no idea what the hell I was thinking when I begged my husband to help me figure out how I could go to school. Now that I do I almost regret ever starting. Why? you ask. Well lets see here I have three children that are 10, and 12. I work a full time job, yes that does give me summers off and vacations, but I have three children, so there is never really a day off. My husband owns a buisness, TicketsFromTheWeb.com, and we have a four bedroom house that needs to be taken care of. Now I have all these wonderful things that I would not change for the world, and then I go and start school full time on top of all of it. Yes I go online, and only take one class at a time, but it is full time because I take 5 week classes. This means that every class I take is a 8-10 week course crammend into 5 weeks. I ahve lots of home work, and a lot of reading to do every week. And I can't stop now because I have loans that I would have to pay back, on a low income. Also it would teach my kids that when things get hard you can walk away. But I gotta tell you I spend about 70% of my time in tears right now! I have so much to do every night that I never get to bed untill at the earliest untill 11:30pm and am up at 5am. I hardly communicate with anyone because I am always stuck looking at my lap top and doing school work. How sexy can I be for my husband when I am in tears or sitting at my lap top trying to do school work, that I clearly am not understanding. And if my kids are up past 9pm they have to sit with me while I am in my computer doing school work. Even right this second as I am typing this I am thinking that I should be doing school work, and that I have to plan 8 lessons for work this weekend.
Now after reading this rant please understand that I am happy that I have this oppurtunity to go to school, and what not. But I have to tell that I feel as if I should have waited, a little while longer. I am missing important time with my kids, and husband, and I am so F*&(ing sick of crying all the time.